Day Four
So, what are we on, Day Four?
So the cravings should be gone, and for the most part, I guess they are. Still wearing the patches, but the things don't stick that well and fall off randomly about the house. I'm afraid one will fall off and one of the dogs will eat it, which I'm sure would be bad for any of the random canines who live with me.
Still feel a bit snippy, wouldn't mind sucking down some sweet tobacco into my blackened lungs, but I'll pass for the moment.
Haven't been coughing as much, so that's a good thing. Zombie Rage has been replaced with a melancholy feeling of loss.
Most of my friends smoke, so I'm a little worried about being around them but the way I figure it, it is me that's quitting smoking, not them so this isn't their gig, it's mine. They can do whatever they want, but I keep wondering if I will cheat once I'm around the world of nicotine again. I can only hope I'm tougher than that.
Does that make sense?
My family is delighted, but I have to say I'm still mourning the loss of the cigarettes. Hoping that aspect goes away.
Also, It's almost like my body is cleaning itself of the nicotine. Now that is just wicked weird and is making me feel squirrelly. It's a very bizarre feeling, and I'll be damned if my sniffer is working a bit better.
Thanks for all of the support.
Going to drink excessively now, find my slinky (dammit, where is it) and continue to grieve/celebrate in the bipolar world my brain has sought fit to give me during this withdrawel period..